"I write emotional algebra." - Anais Nin

Top: Old Navy| Skirt: The Ramp

"The role of a writer is not to say what we all can say, but what we are unable to say"

“I am lonely, yet not everybody will do. I don't know why, some people fill the gaps and others emphasize my loneliness. In reality those who satisfy me are those who simply allow me to live with my ''idea of them.”

“There were always in me, two women at least, one woman desperate and bewildered, who felt she was drowning and another who would leap into a scene, as upon a stage, conceal her true emotions because they were weaknesses, helplessness, despair, and present to the world only a smile, an eagerness, curiosity, enthusiasm, interest.”

"Don't say anything, because I see that you understand me, and I am afraid of your understanding. I have such a fear of finding another like myself, and such a desire to find one! I am so utterly lonely, but I also have such a fear that my isolation be broken through, and I no longer be the head and ruler of my universe. I am in great terror of your understanding by which you penetrate into my world; and then I stand revealed and I have to share my kingdom with you"

"Everything with me is either worship and passion or pity and understanding. I hate rarely, though when I hate, I hate murderously."

"I don’t really want to become normal, average, standard. I want merely to gain in strength, in the courage to live out my life more fully, enjoy more, experience more. I want to develop even more original and more unconventional traits"

“I am only responsible for my own heart, you offered yours up for the smashing my darling. Only a fool would give out such a vital organ” 

“She lacks confidence, she craves admiration insatiably. She lives on the reflections of herself in the eyes of others. She does not care to be herself.”

What more proof do we all need to convince ourselves that keeping a diary can go a long way? There's Anne Frank then there's Anais Nin. Maybe I'm aware of this eversince a lot of emotions and events in my life started to bother me. Why else would I have patiently maintained a diary for 8 straight years? :)

Train of Thought Series Part 10

Time has flown!!! When I opened my dashboard, I saw that I've published 322 entries already. I thought I was somewhere near 250 only. Overjoyed, I hurriedly clicked on 'New Post' and settled my fingers on the keyboard. Only, I don't have any thoughts to share. My river of a brain is clam, no ripple to bother with. I just wanted to put thoughts into writing, not to add new thoughts that I don't even know if I can publish someday. Surprises, surprises! Instead of checking my daily blog readings I opted for the blogs that though I don't visit often are highly riveting. I'm talking about the blogs of Bianca Gonzalez and Divine Lee. In the middle of reading their own thoughts, I'm overflowing with ideas! Suddenly, I remembered I haven't explained about my year old blog name 'Of Great and the Greatest'. Suddenly, I remembered I did a little arranging of my 'life in a box' the other day (more of this in future posts). Suddenly, I remembered I have a new reader. Expect these three things to be in nitty gritty details in my next Train of Thought posts. 

Thank you so much for all the love and support!!! <3

Train of Thought Series Part 9

Whenever I deal with a difficult situation, I consider only two things:

Would the journey impair so much of how I think of myself that I will have to choose the right things?

Or 

Would the end be enough to justify whatever means I've utilized?

Oftentimes, I'm more of a Machiavellian.

Train of Thought Series Part 8

I still dream of someday finding my castle, my prince and my own fairy tale.

Train of Thought Series Part 7

Trust me, I'm not totally indifferent. Most of the time, I look back.

Train of Thought Series Part 6

Pictures taken 3 years ago

Sometimes when I wake up, I feel like the world's too big for me. So big that it could swallow me whole, along with my thoughts and dreams.

Train of Thought Series Part 5

When I saw this picture on facebook, I started laughing. Like what the comments said, this was taken by the owner of Hacienda Escudero himself, the resort where we were staying then. In my defense, I didn't know he was the owner until one of his crews approached him and told him that the board members were already waiting for him. You could just imagine how embarrassed I was, considering that I asked him to take my picture not just once. But since everything had been said and done, what else could I do but smile my way out.

If all else fails, look cute. - Paris Hilton

Train of Thought Series Part 4: It's all in the Mind

I've tricked my mind into believing that whatever it believes in is normal. 

Train of Thought Part 3

Circa 2007

"Bring on the shackles. I'm your prisoner." 

(Quote not originally mine)

Train of Thought Series Part 2

November 2008
Top and Shorts: Greenhills tiangge| Gladiator Flats: from Hong Kong

Either I'm trying to fit in. Or I'm opposing the rest.

Train of Thought Series Part 1

Waterfalls...

Year 2009
White polo: Liz Claiborne| Vest: The Ramp| Belt: Levi's| Skirt: Esprit| Slippers: Havaianas

 Back then, the only problems I had to decide on were where I'll study in college and what course I'll take up. Now, I'm forced to grow up real fast, making decision after decision. Ever heard of the saying, "Grows old but never up"?

... And a lot of promises.