Top: Old Navy| Skirt: The Ramp
"The role of a writer is not to say what we all can say, but what we are unable to say"
“I am lonely, yet not everybody will do. I don't know why, some people fill the gaps and others emphasize my loneliness. In reality those who satisfy me are those who simply allow me to live with my ''idea of them.”
“There were always in me, two women at least, one woman desperate and bewildered, who felt she was drowning and another who would leap into a scene, as upon a stage, conceal her true emotions because they were weaknesses, helplessness, despair, and present to the world only a smile, an eagerness, curiosity, enthusiasm, interest.”
"Don't say anything, because I see that you understand me, and I am afraid of your understanding. I have such a fear of finding another like myself, and such a desire to find one! I am so utterly lonely, but I also have such a fear that my isolation be broken through, and I no longer be the head and ruler of my universe. I am in great terror of your understanding by which you penetrate into my world; and then I stand revealed and I have to share my kingdom with you"
"Everything with me is either worship and passion or pity and understanding. I hate rarely, though when I hate, I hate murderously."
"I don’t really want to become normal, average, standard. I want merely to gain in strength, in the courage to live out my life more fully, enjoy more, experience more. I want to develop even more original and more unconventional traits"
“I am only responsible for my own heart, you offered yours up for the smashing my darling. Only a fool would give out such a vital organ”
“She lacks confidence, she craves admiration insatiably. She lives on the reflections of herself in the eyes of others. She does not care to be herself.”
What more proof do we all need to convince ourselves that keeping a diary can go a long way? There's Anne Frank then there's Anais Nin. Maybe I'm aware of this eversince a lot of emotions and events in my life started to bother me. Why else would I have patiently maintained a diary for 8 straight years? :)